Uh-HuH

Yesterday I was thinking. The day before I was just rambling. Today, I'm just lost.

How can you rationalise what's irrational? I guess most stuff is actually irrational. Life, Love, Hate...Just anything human. Maybe that's why we are what we are. If we didn't have emotions everything would be less turbulent and confusing. There'd be peace on earth.

What I can't decide on is whether or not being emotionless is a good thing. It would be a good thing in some ways. No love, sadness, hate, jealousy, greed. The things that make our world, our lives, crazy and wrong. But there would be no compassion, love, happiness.

You know what I just realised? There wouldn't be any music. I don't think I could live in a world with no music. It's like this really important part of life, like the sun or rain. Totally necessary for survival.

I also realised something else awhile back but I didn't want to really admit it because I wasn't sure what it meant. We read Lord of The Flies this year and incase you didn't know what it was about I'll give you a short break down.

It's this story about these boys who have been stranded on an island in the future because their plane crashed. It's about how they survive. Well that's what it seems like but really it's about the idea that evil isn't an external thing. It's kinda inside of you and unless you accept it you can't fight it. Most people just put another face to evil rather than consider the possibility that it's inside of them.

Yeah, kinda crazy and admitedly I didn't really buy into it. To me it seems like they just ended up in circumstances that resulted in the events that followed. Acceptance was more important than anything else. Popularity I guess. Life hasn't really changed that much when you really think about it.

"Whatever is popular is wrong" - Oscar Wilde

That assesment is kinda harsh in my opinion.

"Avoid popularity: it has many snares, and no real benefit." - William Penn

You see that makes far more sense. Not that anyone can really avoid popularity. Well you can. I do. But it's kinda instinct to want to be popular because that means you've been accepted. Everyone wants to be accepted. Except me. I'm like genetically mutated or something. Whatever, not the point.

My origional point was that if evil is in us then we're evil. But we aren't. No one is. Who they are is a result of their experiences. Gosh getting off track here.

I don't think that there is a god. Well in a sense. Evil is externalised but maybe god is aswell. Maybe neither of those things are actually real. They're just who we are. Because to me they are just good and evil but not even that.

God isn't good. Or evil. It's just truth. And peace. The justice and rightness, like a consience. Not someone with a book looking at your deeds. Personally I don't think anyone in the entire universe would care enough to write down and keep track of all the bad and good stuff people did. I mean there are 6.3 billion people living on the earth plus all the others living on different planets. If there are any. So maybe there is a god. I don't know.

There aren't really ever any answers. That's truth.