ThInKiNg

So I've been thinking, which isn't really the smartest thing to be doing right now. Or at any point in time really. My mind isn't exactly the safest to venture by myself. Which is actually kinda weird when you think about it because nobody else can actually get into your mind except yourself so it would be impossible to go into it without being by yourself.

Anyway the point is that thinking is not usually a good thing to do. It's like I said before, people who investigate too deeply into stuff end up foucussing on one part and forgetting the whole. Then they go crazy. And usually die. By commiting suicide.

A future as a genius does not look healthy at all. Good thing I'm not one. This blog is evidence that I'm not because if I was a genius I would not be using crappy blog templates. Sometimes I wish I was one of those people who can just pick up languages and spout them out in perfect sentences. If I could do that first I'd learn Html and then I'd learn mandarin. I'd fit latin in there somewhere.

Before I sat down to type this I kinda tried to give myself a pep talk of sorts. Let me just say that my pep talks SUCK so do not come to me if you want pep. Anyway I was kinda telling myself not to write the long pointless speel I wrote yesterday.

As you might observe, it isn't working.

So my day was sorta weird today. I spent alot of it in front of the tv but I wasn't really watching. It was just kind of an excuse. So that I wouldn't look weird for staring at nothing for hours on end not speaking. For some reason that sounds seriously appealing. It sounds kinda half dangerous half practical to do that. I just don't know if anyone else sees it like that.

I never ever fully understood why humans think. Things would be simpler if we weren't able to. We'd b boring and dumb but we wouldn't know anything else. As nice as it is to make the most of each moment there comes a time when instead of living you want to get more than that.

Not that I'm making any sense. I am officially tired. I mean I only came to write is because I've been a bitch to everyone I know and well...I'm not getting over it. How do u get over chronical bitchiness. Climb a mountain? Scream at the top of your lungs? Do you just keep it bottled up until you can't remember the bad anymore.

It's about balance. Everything is about balance. Blancing School and life. Right and wrong. Crazy or sane. Moving on and hanging on. All it takes is a leap of faith