“I’m not the cheating type” (Lies, all lies...)

I just did something that I’m sure is not kosher in any faith including my own brand of atheism. People always claim that guys are the dogs, always using girls and cheating and lying and generally causing a huge amount of extra baggage to be carried around by all of us. Well I just bucked that system in the most disgusting way and naturally I don’t feel too awful about it. There’s a guy, I know he likes me. And in the same way my crush mercilessly exploits this fact, so do I. I’m just a bit sneakier about it. But let’s start at the beginning.

You see I would’ve given him a fair shot; if he hadn’t told me that he wasn’t gonna wait forever for me. I mean hello? He likes ME but he’s all “I’m not going to wait for you” Actually it was more that I had a year-long chance to say yes. Puh-lease... anyway naturally I said no, he hadn’t even asked me out properly and I was head-over-heels in Guy (still am). Of course Guy doesn’t like me at all.

Instead of waiting for Guy I gave up that cause on and off for the last 6 months. But the thing is that this other guy tells me he’s in love with this girl from Jo’burg. He’d liked me like 3 months before and now he’s in love with a Jozi girl. Anyway that wasn’t an issue but my ego to a major blow.

So today, the day after valentines, I asked him what he’d do if I told him I liked him. His response was cute and kinda romantic enough to win me over for a short while. Until I needed to thresh out the practicalities of my new relationship (should I be getting tingles or something?). I mean we needed to look at how it was going to work, like what would happen if we broke up. He said we’d be friends unless I cheated on him.
I don’t like this guy, I like Guy. I want to go out with Guy, not this other guy. But I didn’t feel bad until I said that I wasn’t the cheating type – Because I am. Even if it isn’t physically (though it probably will be) I’ll still be thinking of Guy all the time. Well not all the time but you know, the important times.

I’m getting over Guy but still this isn’t the direction I should be heading. I’m gonna date and dump this guy while possibly cheating on him when I get skinny enough to get away with it, which will be soon. Then I can upgrade and be the slut I am.

Back to the problem...what do I tell my friends? This guy is not a loser but not a catch either. I can’t advertise this, especially with what I have in mind, but I need to tell someone!

The question is who? My two “bffs” barely know the guy and if I tell my confidante I’m gonna get judged harshly. But what the heck. None of them know him; he could be gorgeous for all they know. I’m not shallow but I’m not going to put up with a dead end personality, OMG I am so lame! I just asked him to go to a Uparty! A 2nd year uni student to a Uparty! OMFG...I’m going to go die quietly now...