FrOm ThE bOtToM oF mY bRoKeN hEaRt...

"Never look back," we said

How was I to know I'd miss you so?

I've been missing him so much and I don't know what to do about it. I thought he moved on because he never cared as much as I did and he has but it hurts. It would be different if we were just friends without our long tangled up history. I don't even know how he sees me...I wish I could go back.

Loneliness up ahead, emptiness behind

Where do I go?

And now there's no one left for me. I mean all I have are my memories of him and the two who came after him. 3 in 5 years and none of them liked me. There's just nowhere to go anymore.

And you didn't hear

All my joy through my tears

All my hopes through my fears

Did you know, still I miss you somehow

Despite everything he's said and done I still miss him but he just doesn't see it. And when he does see it, he just takes it the wrong way completely. I wish you were here.

From the bottom of my broken heart

There's just a thing or two I'd like you to know

You were my first love, you were my true love

From the first kisses to the very last rose

The saddest thing is that I never got ANY of that, just...none of it. I wish I just had some idea of what it would have been like to walk under his shoulder because he wanted me near, instead of him slinging it around me cause I was like one of the guys.

From the bottom of my broken heart

Even though time may find me somebody new

The thing that worries me the most is that I won't find someone new. 3 years is a long time.

You were my real love, I never knew love

I guess you never do forget the first love you have, no matter what happens

'Til there was you

From the bottom of my broken heart

You promised yourself

But to somebody else

And you made it so perfectly clear

Still I wish you were here

I know that you didn't love me and probably never will but I can't seem to let it go. Maybe I can try. It is never to late to begin again and look for something that could be better than this. There's a mark you leave like a love heart carved on a tree...it stays for awhile, may fade till it's close to obscurity but it's still there and part of me and you.

"Never look back," we said

How was I to know I'd miss you so?

Missing you is manageble so let me move forward as you have. The future holds more for me